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2011-04-19T08:14:00.001-07:00

I realised how childish I was. Read my old posts. Read Heidi's post scolding me or something that i copied to my email 2 years ago.

I must admit that I have changed from 2 years ago. I have changed from what I was at PCPS. My dislike for my CCA, I have learnt to forcefully accept it. I have spent my past 15 years with change. Hated by nearly everyone, I was quite snobbish, a show-off as well, without me realising.

At least, I am proud to say that I have changed. No longer my previous self, definitely. One whole round of conflicts, hatred, and I have returned to what I was long before, listening to others. Half of my life up to now spent revolving around a circle. P6 after PSLE, I found it more tiring after PSLE than studying for it. At a time when everyone was free, happy, having fun, I was finding it worse. I wanted exams to come back. Really depressing. I never truly recovered from that, no one would give me a second chance.

How childish I was. Going around making enemies for no good reason. Not invited to anything of the class. I want to contribute, regardless of how late it is, to 6B 08. With the current quarrels and conflicts that haven't be resolved, let go of your grudges. It's easy, ask yourself why are you hating one another. A neutral party, I hope I am today, if I can help in any way.

2011-02-06T00:18:00.001-08:00

This year sec 3 already.

So much appears the same, yet just as much appears different.

Yep got different class, got different teachers, its a different year.

But still, same attitude, same problems, same mindset, same hatred.

One year past already.

Gosh I'm still stuck here

I hate it so much

Not that I wanted this to happen

Not that I liked it in the first place.

Tomorrow got school

Break end le :(

Long day some more

YAY tchrs day

2010-08-31T07:08:00.000-07:00

Today is teachers' day celebration. The celebration was not as bad as I imagined it to be. IT ENDED AT 9:30AM THATS THE BEST THING. muhahaha. Then I took my time to go pcps, first I had breakfast at Burger King since there was the $2.95 set. After that go downstairs to $1.05 shop buy random stuff. The seaweed and sweet there quite cheap leh, cost of three tubes of sweets there = 1 tube of sweet in seven eleven. Spent about $4. Then I got damn angry with Popular for opening so late. Hmph I wanted to buy teachers day gift. So I decided to queue at Koi for bubble tea, short queue some more don't needa wait that long as during NYFF (i remember waiting for 20 minutes at least).

So I waited for the interval of one bus to finish bubble tea, then waited another interval since I couldn't find somewhere to throw. U know la, since I was wearing uniform I cannot do anything that is ungracious, later they put on Stomp and don't pixel my face then how you want me to go outdoors. Lose my mian zi. And I only went to PCPS at 11.30am after my constant delaying. I reached canteen then I keep scolding jia for not guiding me around her school during NYFF. Don't know why she run in the first place. Then she keep threatening. Bleh she 恶人先告状, promise to guide me around in the end never. Anyway we all met li lao shi and we took photos with him. Then he tell me stop growing haha. And we continued seeing people come and they left for lunch at I-donno-where just before Janet arrived. Hmph. We were considering have lunch all together. Then kai juin come tag along with us until we managed to shake him off some how. Yun yi kept on getting scared of Jonan haha. Same bus some more, then she keep explaining that he CMI. So later we reached central at like 3+pm !@#$ damn late le that time, they say want to eat ichiban but then no more lunch set thanks to janet walking at waiting rather than running like Kelsey. All Janet's fault made us have to go to library since there was no movie we liked to watch at Eng Wah.

Then she went there keep sitting down around 200+ on the adult level since teen level all taken up le (bleh they shld put 21 or below there, just like for senior citizen corner 65 and above). At the adult level Yun Yi was finding for some geography book, and then out of surprise we stumbled upon books about sex. Then we all were laughing then later I went to search for some oil book which I borrowed later. While I was reading the book Janet very wu liao go take the books on sex and read, then the things inside were damn sick sia, some sex technique book ah? Then we kept on laughing and the funniest thing was that she borrowed the book in the end. HAHA maybe next time we shld go library again, comedy that's free, cheaper than arcade

2010-08-22T09:07:00.000-07:00

Sian I went Japanese festival yesterday. Legs still aching now (a bit luckily, unlike on NYFF make my leg damn pain, back of my foot still had that small bruise.)

About NYFF, I reached at 3.30pm I think. Thanks to the school's bad phone reception (call jia like dunno how many times also cannot receive, wah lau) together with the poor utilization of the TV screens on the bus (they could have used it to show the bus station name right. zhen shi de), made me like 6km ahead wah lau eh. original distance was 10 km, then coz i duno whr NY is and coz i scared no return bus so I sat for longer and longer lor. And coz jia didn't freaking reply me coz of the poor phone reception. So I sat on the bus for like 22 km before reaching there, go back another 10 km so it's like 60% more time than I should have been on the bus. Well maybe I should not have bought koi cafe milk tea, I think it had already melted quite a bit when I reached there (if i bought for jia taking into account the extra 1 hour I spent finding her I think the whole thing entirely melted le.) And so sad Anyway yesterday went jap festival. Quite the same. Queues queues queues. I only know my legs ached

Let's face it

2010-08-08T08:22:00.000-07:00

I don't like going for you, you desperately want to boot me out. Yet it is because of the external forces of reality that have stopped us from separating. I will combat these external forces and practice everyday. It no longer is a matter where I can say no, I will fight for my life back. You will no longer cripple me from my dreams. My dreams I will work towards them, you may be continuing hating me, that's who I am. In a matter of days I hope the miracle occurs, at least I've tried even if it didn't occur.

Chinese today

2010-07-29T04:32:00.000-07:00

Haha chinese today was epic. There were three teachers who came in to observe how our teacher taught. (Dunno why they needed three, last time with lee cherh I think only one?). Then everyone's mood changed once the older lady who looks like mrs chor was saying 拿椅子 in some accent. The people around me were like complaining 'so authoritative', '!@#$'. Then tang lao shi was standing there to teach the flower poem. And I think no one played cellphone during that period and no one slept haha :). For me I was like randoming there, hope I don't get too much attention. After the three teachers got out some ppl raised the finger behind her. Then everyone was cheering when they got out. Then we were talking to the chinese teacher, then she say xie xie.

Freaking unfair

2010-07-27T07:24:00.000-07:00

When others are being unfair to you, why should you be fair to them? If they do not help you in times of need, go ahead and be daring enough to reject their lies. All a pack of lies.

Freaking unfair. They classify me with that person. Wow. Group work is more of a segregation between the elitist and the non-elitist. Now I am being classified right at the bottom. Amazing they still remember my grades from last year. Was I not contributing? Name when. You classify me with him. Fine. Go ahead. I will retaliate with all methods at all costs. Complain like I did in the past and make one whole group never able to enjoy higher authority.

Kicking me away precisely means that you all are discriminating me. The road seems hopeless. I am on the verge of complete collapse. I don't deserve this sort of treatment. This is just damn unfair. Kick me aside because you all think that I am an easy solution to the problem and that I shut up the whole time. freaking unfair. I will retaliate.

Jap test coming

2010-07-25T00:47:00.000-07:00

Sadly jap test coming so fast. My last chance of ever continuing 3rd lang is now. Get a good grade and I may continue on, get a bad one then bury myself alive. And my grades are sucky as compared to the ring of fire surrounding me. Yes, ring of fire. All high grades sia. Got some are 3.87, got some are 3.93 i think, 3.8 also have. So sad. Hope I get top 10 though I think it's quite impossible.

Anyway geog peer evaluation was on friday. My group which was obviously unelitist had quite a sad case. Leader Vaikunth was good, contrary to what Mrs Ramesh said. He did lots of work though I must agree that he's a little sick sometimes haha. Now move on to Syahid. Chionged quite a lot during the last day of the performance task, though have slight delays but then in general was alright. At least the attitude was there. Now turn the camera to Sathya. Came for the meeting, did work as well and punctual I guess (1 minute late in sending the email, not that late right?). Now for the irritating person who gave me a ten for peer evaluation. First he told our group that he had to do his scouts and history reflections which he was SUPPOSED to have be doing or done during the history meeting since he had so much free time. Hence handing up of his part was delayed by quite a number of days. Ok, let's assume this was just a malfunction somewhere. Next, geography meeting. Vaikunth sent him an email at 9pm friday to tell everyone to meet at Saturday (According to Sathya he called as well.) The next day, had I not went to school I would not have believed it myself. He went for scouts profis instead of geography meeting. In school I saw a lot of scouts people upstairs on the third level of admin block. I did not see him there though I highly predicted that he was there. Correct. What an accurate sixth sense. I decided to message him. No response despite repeated sending. Ok, so Sathya and I called him at different timings. He went and reject call. Fine, cannot do anything right, so when I went home I went and check fb. 'had a lot of interesting conversations during profis, maybe I should try for more.' What does 'try for more' mean? It means it's a volunteer activity. When there is an urgent geography meeting he went and go for profis. Yes, they are important, but it's appears to be volunteer and if you can try for more means you can try on other dates right? So I scolded him. He responded by not answering to the question.

Now, peer evaluation. My grades got burnt thanks to him. Give me a 10/15 for peer evaluation while giving the rest higher because I scolded to uphold fairness. I would have given him a fail if I were to go by my heart's will. In fact a 6.5 or 7/15. Last year you tore my geography grades apart. Arguing when I emphasized to follow the rubrics and use simpler English, resulting in a complete failure. Sympathy marks only.

About some others. Throw me outside your circle and secure the benefits between yourselves while ignoring the role I played. You all chased me out of your circle long ago. I want justice being done to myself. Maybe if I exposed what you all really did to me I could prove a point.

MVs and songs

2010-07-22T08:02:00.000-07:00

MVs actually show a different side of the song. The song lets you interpret in how to way it is being sung. MV forces you to take a certain side. E.g 对的人 by 戴爱玲 the song is quite good, but the mv is sucky. When you can imagine a much better mv in your head. She flying like halfway in the air. Then next fast forward into the future. Might has well have her running to the top of the cliff or something, works better. Song good but mv ruins it.

Either way I still like some MVs, especially 张惠妹's and 丁当's. All are very good. Today was a good day other than RC who kept on complaining from the back about me (which I am already immune to due to long term sourness). And no for drama challenge I don't want to be the actor please. I know my acting is damn lousy except when reading Chinese poem in a ancient voice, but still that sucked. I see what role they gonna assign me. The lawyer one? Then I start writing like how I wrote long court letters in 6B muhahahaha. Especially Chadric's divorce case, I write there that he must pay damn lot of divorce fee. Then li lao shi put in on the notice board of the class. Luckily din let the whole school see, or else I'd been doomed.

Now I only think of the past. What wonders. Last time I could not wait for the future. Now when they play school song I think of wen hua ge and pcps song, but unfortunately I forgot like half the thing. Or maybe more. Last time return home at 12.30pm and I find it late, now 6+ 7+ cannot do anything.

Maybe I should be a bit more optimistic. At least I am not elitist unlike some !@#$% who believe, support and idolize the elite. At least I have my own thinking. But I am scared I'll suddenly turn elitist, which I vowed never to become one. Elite and elitist is separate though, elite means the creme de la creme, elitist means idolizing the creme de la creme.

I still don't like english songs. Some too boring, long-winded, repeated, unskillfully done. Either way translating that song yesterday was quite difficult but I tried my best. Not that I had the intention of getting a prize given that there were so many Chinese scholars that are damn pro in Chinese and probably memorized many dictionaries. But well, given the encouragement of K.I.S.S (korea, disbanded) everything will have a start. Including good things.

Song is perfect

2010-07-18T07:44:00.000-07:00

K.I.S.S korean girls group is good lol. though i must say the song was not that difficult in terms of pitch maybe except during when the song reaches the emotional part. But the plot maker is talented. Very. For the mv at least even though one of them din die he still could bring out the emotional part to make people cry. Zia was like so sad about the song and named her fb album over it haha. Slow montion part was good. Good manipulation of feelings, really touching. Though I find it a pity that they separate so fast, some of the pioneers to ur kpop which might never be so popular if not thanks to them. Wouldn't fit inside a 3 minute song, too short and draggy if you just extend it for a 90 minute movie, so 8 minutes should be fine.

Living in my utopia

2010-07-17T09:27:00.000-07:00

Every night listening to the same nice love songs, just try to get myself optimistic for tomorrow.

It's difficult for others to see how music helps save one from complete collapse for the time being. It may come soon, I plead for it. Fast collapse, easier recovery. I don't want to have to care anymore, let's return to being strangers. No more hate, and I can disappear from you. Let us both separate forever.

Sarcasm, one I wish I can solve with a voice instead of complete collapse. I look forward to the future where we divert paths, no more involvement with each other. Looked forward for this, look forward to the next, where I realise things, people are not as they seem. I find it tiring.

真希望有机会唱这段歌词

“我不难过了
甚至真心希望你能幸福
当我了解
你只活在记忆里头
我不恨你了
甚至原谅你的残酷理由“

bored

2010-07-16T09:35:00.000-07:00

I was watching about how North Koreans make the rockets rise using placards, people there clapping are like the no. of people in erm Jurong West or Tampines. the scene seemed shocking. And no i still find it difficult to believe that Nikita Khruschev (or whoever he is) was denied entry to disneyland.

Anyway my gpa sucks it's like everything around border line of missing the grade just 3.67. But luckily thanks to the strong influences from ppl around me that is very encouraging for me to study harder since all da elitist are surrounding me. One to the North, One next to me, the other two behind, good study environment though can copy either one by leaning to right, forward or turn the head behind. At least the marks are more or less balanced, all got 3.6 except history 4.0. Sad case no of 4.0s collapsed from 2 to 1, 3.6 went to 5. But same overall grade point average.

Apparently I seem to be a very bad group member in projects with people classifying me with ramana. Why so? I am waiting for the breakthrough that must occur soon. With that breakthrough, I want to be classified back into where I belong, not one that is meant to be criticized for unreasonable causes. Once the breakthrough occurs, I don't think I'll need to worry about anything else yet.

Random

2010-07-13T09:18:00.000-07:00

Wah now so fast past midnight le. I thought tablets supposed to make you drowsy.

Anyway I was playing tarot cards just now out of boredom, and apparently the things inside seem quite re-assuring. Conflict will result in success. So on and so forth. But some were quite saddening (of course, if there's no saddening part then it's fake.) Listening to the same music again and again, I wonder how I manage not to get bored yet. Coming this afternoon is what i dislike. Apparently unlike other people who just dislike it I seem to hate it to the core, making me despo for anything but to get far far away from it. Not just fear but also shock, pain, temper. I rather starve, get myself ill to avoid it. The fear I am experiencing, especially having a failed attempt once destroyed nearly every piece of hope i had. The miracle I hope it happens soon, I really don't want to wait for any more delays (as said by the tarot card). Then I can walk on a new path.

Don't push it

2010-07-11T07:48:00.000-07:00

As the days go past I apparently don't understand sarcasm. I find it so difficult to rebut others that criticize. I was tempted to use vulgarities, but no I din coz u're not even worth those words, at least those words if used correctly can be seen as some form of a proper rebuttal but merely unorganized.

Leave me, you were not even with me at the start. Ignore me, that's how I prefer it, go ahead. Ridicule all you wish, I turn a blind eye. Deep down I hate you, hoping my anger will boil you to disappear.

If you stop it now I can hate you less and heal the wounds you caused and have a better front in front of you. Dormant volcanoes are all the more dangerous, because they store and keep energy for a long time. I ain't even dormant because I force myself to keep controlling my emotions no matter what. Said to be extinct, but quietly dormant. I just want to see how long I can continue controlling my emotions against your moronic behaviour. You push it to the limit, and I wouldn't be able to control my emotions, see what I'll do then.

Chinese Teacher leaving

2010-07-08T06:53:00.001-07:00

Can't believe I'm saying this, but I am feeling quite sad the lee cherh not teaching us le. At least she let us do some illegal things. By right should be chinese rep wen jun most sad, coz his 'grandma' (aileen chor) left on wednesday, then on thursday lee cherh also not teaching our class le, must be a double blow.

Today lee cherh brought tang lao shi to come and learn how to guan the class. In 6B 08 last time relief teachers were keep changing right after mdm ong never teach. Then change teachers again and again. Last year Geog at least chor seng was stable. Then after that keep changing teachers. Now Chinese is frightening. I do hope tang lao shi is nice and teach well.

song

2010-07-02T06:29:00.000-07:00

lol i love '我是一只小小鸟‘ by 丁当，the note is damn high sia. and the story is very touching. Shows her difficulties of having singing as a career, what she gave up, all that. wonderful singing.

Tired but cannot sleep

2010-06-30T07:29:00.000-07:00

zzz why do i get damn tired and yet unable to sleep. and i realised that im eating less. I want a miracle to happen, soon, seconds, minutes, few days later. That's my only wish.

After a long time

2010-06-18T05:29:00.000-07:00

Wah finally I am posting again (not like anyone cares to read). Mousehunt looks damn boring already. Restaurant city also, the crazy change of exp. For CT i am screwed, but the tarot card says have more confidence, conflicts result in victory. I must start studying Jap (one week left, last chance to save it before I get forced to quit, I failed a big one le leh.)

Went to Malaysia like one month ago. It's ok, but I want to go Korea!!! Like kelsey not fair I change the ticket with u, though more ex I willing to pay little bit more. I want to go EVERLAND. Either way, it made me forget some idiots who are just purely irritating, I would like to do what Bernard Shaw did and ask them 'Dear blah blah blah, please justify your existence.' Since they are so irritating and troublesome, basically boot-lickers to the muggers. I don't find it worth the energy to be angry and worth the saliva to yell at them, not worth it at all, not because I don't find their behaviour irritating.

Bored

2009-10-19T06:33:00.001-07:00

Long time since I posted. I shall continue after the exams

STUDY...

2009-10-03T22:42:00.000-07:00

Just 11 days to EOY EL, and 19 days to the end of EOYs. Gotta quit facebook or halt at it for a period of time.
And MOELC system if dates is somewhat unpractical. Still having classes to check our marks during the exam period, WTH. Time is marks for the students and can't they hold the marks checking time at like after the exams. Or Friday 23 October after the Math EOY we can come what. And since when did checking marks needed to take 3 full hours? WTH. Even the exam is shorter than that. I don't think many students will go to MOELC on 20 October just to see the marks and lose precious time that they can spend studying instead.
OK I guess it's end of blogging and back to mugging. zzz

2009-09-24T03:24:00.000-07:00

Sigh.
Bored. What to do?

Sigh...

2009-09-19T21:31:00.000-07:00

Sigh, end-of-year exam coming so soon.
Yet, a memory remains within my mind, unforgettable for a whole year, despite attempts to forget. One year on, this painful memory never disappears. I find it so hard to forget.
It has been difficult to cry this whole year, which makes the whole thing worser. This feeling comes everyday, a painful burden that is hard to bear.
Remembering is difficult in areas like studying, but it is pain that is best remembered. Even when a candle loses its fire within hours, a burnt candle takes decades or even centuries to completely disappear from this world. It remains there, with the candle being a memory and the fire being what happened.
I have suddenly realised that it has been term 4. I only realise that what seemed so easy to disappear cannot,once something related comes back to your mind months or years of hard work for this memory to fade away goes back to square 1. It is an unforgettable memory which never disappears

Sigh...a painful memory

2009-09-11T09:12:00.000-07:00

Sigh, time flies. Now is already Term 3 school holidays already ending. But when I remember that school ends at week 8 term 4, I just get so happy. I can go online for like 2 or 3 hours without realising it. Seriously. Then the music go like don't know how many times already I still repeat it. Sigh. I am getting tired. Very tired. I am quite tired of facebook already. I feel like quitting, yet I can't. I think I'll just pause it for 3 days or something. Now is already 11.43pm. 60 hours to school again. The same cycle which I get so tired of it. I keep thinking ahead, then everything seems to be perfect. I think of when I graduate from sec school, jc, uni. I wonder, why am I being so tired? I know I can't end it by jumping off a ledge. I just feel so negative, everything comes against me. I simply have no idea why all this is happening to me. Why do I feel it to be so normal, for vulgarities to be coming against me? Why does it seem so normal, to be hated by so many people? It's just painful feeling like that. How come do I feel like that?
It's tiring acting as though nothing happened. I have had enough of acting. I have had enough of being ridiculed, hated for no apparent reason. I really hope that this will end. I realise that I have not changed this whole time. Not a bit. I am still as tired, as acting as before. I have never changed at all when I thought I had. A bottle of water in a metal container, heated and full with heat, once that heat is gone, back to square one. I just feel like I am just excess, simply extra.
Being real tired, real tired of this never-ending show. I have to act that I have no idea what is going on. I have to act that I don't care of these attacks. I have had enough of it. It has been tired acting for so long. This painful memory is very painful,
这场戏几时结束

So angry

2009-09-09T02:33:00.000-07:00

LALALALALA you are so screwed. Who are you ah? So rude anyhow go publicise when I didn't even give you permission to do so. You better find some way to clear up my blog's URL. It took like 3 months for your last post to disappear into the older messages of the cbox and now you come and dao luan again. How many 3 months are you going to do this ah? Blood lah you. Zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz. One more time, just one more, and I will call in MOE to go and track who you are. Then they'll prosecute you on grounds of ignorance of privacy rights and breaking of privacy laws.

Math PT

2009-09-03T02:36:00.000-07:00

I'm just so bored.

Freak lah. Math PT so difficult to count. I spent like 1 hour counting for 36 months of the bank loan and i have to count like 360 months some more. If it's not right I have to do it again. Sian.
It's just quite difficult to count although I count well in sums like 1+1. Then the stupid excel so bloody difficult to count. I put the dollar sign also don't have. So in the end don't use $ sign lor. And the stupid instalment thing is worst. I count like so wrong leh. And this stupid PT also don't let the people in the story pay faster than 30 years. I mean it's so much more easier to count like that. Not like the people cannot afford. Still extend until 30 years. They thought they borrowing from Japan bank ah, got 0% interest, can 慢慢付. Like that pay even more lor. I mean, if this a Performance Task, we should calculate the years for them OURSELVES to help them save money. The interest also not low, still tell us die die must do 30 years. You thought value of money drop so fast ah. Got drop also never drop so fast, or how the bank earn so much money to give 10 years bonus? Or I can finish the task with, they sold their house at the same price and received the same amount back and paid the bank in one lump sum after 30 years. Even easier.Or maybe they found gold underneath their house and sold their house for a profit of $2m and paid the house loan immediately. Or even better, they forgot to sign the bank agreement so no interest charged.

Depresssssed and sad

2009-08-23T05:22:00.000-07:00

Really very sad. This song is so perfect in describing how I feel.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LZyD-FFPKOc

Seriously, I have been searching for a song that can describe how I feel for so long.

Tears nearly formed in my eyes when I remembered the past while listening to the song. Just read the chinese subtitles can liao. I remember I heard this song so long ago and I thought of another one based on this in my dreams. I'm too young, I just can't think of a good one.
I can sing and listen to this for duno how long.

Crying is not able to clear this pain that is inflicted, why not fall in love with this pain? Love those who don't seem to love, and enjoy that pain in the love.

HAPPY 50TH POST

2009-08-22T23:44:00.000-07:00

I expected this 50th post to come earlier though.

Nvm. Just so fun yesterday. I went to the Japanese Summer Festival thing. I expected the maximum 800 people there, but there was like 5000?

Couldn't believe it myself.

I spent $20++ on the things there lor. Luckily I save lots in the past, so got loads of savings and untapped reserves that can be redrawn to spend like siao. The salmon don the fish so little and the rice also only a little bit then want $5. So ex. But the chocolates quite value for money. $5 for one big pack and $1 for a small one. So cheap.

Later at the last 15 min then I go and buy things. Suddenly everything all half price. Luckily I haven't bought the toys yet lol. Saved so much $ through that:)

RE Oral Presentation

2009-08-21T06:07:00.000-07:00

Zzz today screw up by a little. Just a little. Just a little more. Just a little more. Just a little more.

Can't blame me though, I only saw the powerpoint for the first time when presenting lol.

Anyway, why must they keep on attacking our subject on solar energy? Don't get it leh. When we had a peace deal...-_-

Whatever, I will continue my crticism on nuclear energy here, just that it's 9pm already and I wanna watch Heart of Greed.

So enough of blogging for today.

Lawsuit- Part 3

2009-08-16T02:14:00.000-07:00

Zia, to conclude what I have said earlier, you will have to pay me a total bill of approximately
RMB 125,750,914.53. This sum is counted normal as you have done great harm to the plaintiff. The plaintiff did not even request for USD100,000,000 even though he should have! Therefore, given your persistent harming of the plaintiff, I will request that you pay the plaintiff a further amount of RMB178,923,405.37. Your total fine stands at 300 million yuan in total now.

Judge: Zia, you have been found guilty of intentionally hurting the plaintiff mentally, which is many times worst than being hurt physically. Together with the fact that you have done this more than once, specifically 6 times on the cbox and other places, I find you guilty of Special Code 294B, harming the other party mentally and therefore causing loss of wealth and health and many things else. Because there has been no sign of remoursefulness throughout the trial and that you are not respecting the court via doing so, you are to pay the plaintiff a total of RMB359,403,582.30 for charge number 1. Charge number 2 you will have to pay RMB125,502,947.83. Charge no. 3 you will have to pay RMB203,938,285.48. Added altogether with the other charges as well, you will have to pay the plaintiff a total of RMB 2,394,583,029.43. If we include all legal costs and miscellaneous, you will have to pay RMB2.6B in all

Mousehunt

2009-08-15T00:20:00.000-07:00

Honestly I think the stock market in superbrie should be stopped.

I lost thousands of gold already because of the superbrie. Its price really should be controlled. Luckily I don't have so much Superbrie or else... By the way I'm auctioning it now...zzz...1250pp? Ridiculous. Last time also not so low. I think I'll sell it next time but buy it now. This thursday the price collapse, Friday also, today also collaspe, actually the whole month already collapsed. Worst than stock market sia. But anyway just go mousehunt for fun. I need 100k gold more. The transaction fee which made my 70k disappear wasted me like 7k. zzz. Still wan me to send gold. Want me to get heart attack ah? 7k leh. Can buy 5 superbrie leh. Not going to give my precious gold in sums more than 2000 to anyone liao. zzz.

Btw, the court hearing will continue on a later date given considerations that the judge is very busy. It will be extended till October 31.

Part 2: Lawsuit

2009-08-12T21:39:00.000-07:00

(Continued from Part 1)

Zia, because of the fact that you are speaking too much vulgarities, it has added up to lots of emotional stress and mental stress on me. I have also lost a lot of hours of sleep trying to think of how to write a lawyer's letter. I believe that if the judge imposes you a fine it will liberate your thoughts and you will learn not to be so vulgar. The lost hours of sleep weigh a heavy cost and price tag because I may get a heart attack and have not enough oxygen and lose the ability to grow by a further approximate height of 0.01cm. This has made me very emotionally distressed and to help me regain my lost hours of sleep, I guess you could pay me RMB200,000 for me to go for sleep-regaining theraphy and height extending theraphy and the remaining will not even be enough to donate RMB20,000 for gifts for the doctor who will help me do sleep-regaining therapy. Also, my wasted hours of sleep have caused me to be sick indirectly and I have lost 2 working days of wealth and experience. You should pay me at least RMB 10,000 for every hour that I have lost, not inclusive of tax and transaction fees.These costs are not unreasonable but instead, you are lucky to only have these fees to pay. Because a Chinese saying goes, Time is equal to the price of gold, yet gold cannot buy back time, and given the fact that I didn't tell you to buy organic products for the rest of my life and give me pure water from mountains in Iceland, and that I did not make you go to Japan to buy for me life-extending products every week and fix for me a hot spring next to a mountain here in Singapore which you have to build it manually, this request is counted reasonable. Also, I demand you to buy for me solar panels or pay for my electrical bills and RI's electrical bills and Pei Chun's electrical bills for 20 years non-stop. You do not have to pay all, but at least 80% must be paid, together with the taxes. Or you could just pay me RMB 10,000,000 for me and buy a patch of land near Shanghai tower and another at Beijing near the Tiananmen Square. Each patch must be more than 1 squared kilometre. The remaining amount I will use to buy solar panels and windmills and research on hydrogen-derived energy and fussion nuclear power plants to solve the world's energy problems because fussion can last forever, but the current fission cannot last so long but only last for 50 years at most. Your money will be put into good use for the development of mankind and you will be the next energy minister of the United Nations. I have gained your money through these means to make the world a better place when I should have spent it making myself feel better, so I don't see why I shouldn't ask you for these sums of money. Also, your comments of my cbox have caused me to lose confidence and therefore, having no appetite. I will have to demand from you a further RMB500,000 so that I can fly to Japan to get a treatment for my appetite and along the way, to South Korea to allow myself to have more confidence via plastic surgery. The total payment currently standing is only RMB15,200,000. For bail you will have to pay the court US$400,000, or S$550,000. The hearing continues tomorrow.

Lawyer's Lawsuit

2009-08-11T06:16:00.000-07:00

What the?

Tagboard so crappish. So vulgar. Gotta prepare lawyer's letter liao and collect some money from the lawsuit:).

Anyway, Zia, the poll is so not disappearing until you clarify the crap that you have mentioned and I receive my desired amount of payment, because it has created emotional distress that has led to lost of working hours and thinking hours, which should be $100 a minute. Also, it has created wasted hours and a loss of time for being a thirteen year old. You also have to pay me for spending my time to type about this(it would be RMB 100 per letter) You also have to pay for me my library fines and the hours that I lost which I could have spent reading my book which causes me library fines. Lastly, you have defamed me and I am disappointed with what you have done. This has caused me to lose my appetite by 1 grain of rice.

Part 2 coming soon. Hearing continued on Friday.

SIan

2009-08-06T23:04:00.000-07:00

I love maple:) and keep playing till mad. So bored today. The new geog teacher came, and probably because he didn't bring his microphone or practise shouting enough, then nearly everybody was so heck care except for very guai ppl lyk me:). I have to sit all the way in front to hear him coz I can't hear him. Even Math teacher also at least I can hear and listen. Aiya, now need either the silent killing or a loud one. Like Mr Tan Chor Seng, he use more of the silent killing so everybody listen. As in he just keep quiet when he shout a lot liao. That's why the class was so silent when he thought.

Also, I wonder where the real geog teacher was. Supposed to teach us from the start then in the end can only start teaching when we are sec 2. Diao... I mean, what happened that you can't teach us for the whole year? I don't think a doctor would give a 365 day mc. Never mind.

Lol enough of blogging

Sian

2009-07-31T20:48:00.000-07:00

Diao, next week got like 3 tests? But the English poem thing I dunno wad to do. Sad. I also dunno wad the poetry test going to test. I wonder... Luckily I kept listening to the teacher, or else I probably would never pass English. Anyway I just wonder how much time I am wasting daily. How many hours which I could use to study and revise? I mean, after doing my Math worksheet, I thought an hour had past but only 20 minutes had past. Well, gotta study more if I want that 3.6 GPA average. Japanese I really scared that my scores are falling. Really. Because if geography isn't that good I may plan to use Japanese to replace it. Enough of Blogging for 2day

Blah

2009-07-31T20:21:00.000-07:00

Made this blog open again. Just testing out the functions

Privatised

2009-07-28T04:57:00.000-07:00

Finally privatised this blog. So long no privatised. Now can speak nearly anything I want! Freely. Without having to fear that someone would hack me. Anyone wanna be invited send me via sms or email or something.

Poll 2! Vote!

2009-07-19T01:45:00.000-07:00

Since Zia wanted to get me into trouble by telling me to write a couple poll, I'll make one for her.

So vote!

Confirmed Change of CCa

2009-07-18T23:35:00.000-07:00

Didn't post for quite a long time already.
Anyway, I am going to change my CCA like...by tomorrow?
I'm going to take direct action. If I wanna get out of this UG which power game is like the Democratic People's Republic of Korea(or North Korea, which is dictatored), I must practice my singing. I better sing all the chinese songs I know. All that involve high vocal chord. Then I'll get out of this mess. I have to persuade the Choir Teacher to take me in(My vocal is obviously not lower than the people inside even now), and anyway I got a 2+ grade what. And that was when I was not performing at my peak because got people watching outside what. Problem is I wonder how the bloody hell they're gonna allow me to go there. But I already waited the required timing ler, so is allowed to change. If they don't let me change, I'll show them blood!

2009-07-11T22:58:00.000-07:00

Erm what am I supposed to post?

Anyway every rubbish speaker please get out.
This is a very important warning.
Same warning as the crisis in Darfur.
The warning level has hit Stage 4 already, a dramatic rise from yesterday's Stage 2.
Once the warning level has reached Stage 10, the instant imposition of curfews and sanctions on nations posting rubbish will be punished severely.

dONe

zzzzzzzz

2009-07-10T05:38:00.000-07:00

Today it was so fun. Except the PE lah. So tiring. But still better than CCA. OBVIOUSLY RITE! Anyway I would like to thank MOE for cancelling CCA for a third week. I would use one word to describe my CCA. DIE. 死。 I don't think I'll needa say it in 30 other languages. Really leh. Even 48 hours before I go there my heart gets pumping like siao. Like have heart problems liao. I'll make sure I get myself out of there. Definitely. Or else I will starve like what I have done before and can do again. So that hopefully I faint suddenly and everyone can go home immediately. And I have. But the go home part didn't happen. Sad. I should have just said I had an athsma problem that suddenly came out from the blue and then say that I must change CCA. All the UG people wanna go choir, but the vacancies are limited. If the teacher didn't keep making me nervous by allowing all the students stand there and watch me perform my vocal test there, I sure get in one :). Anyway I going to quit liao. Bring in the drama for a change

Happy 30th post!

2009-07-02T03:20:00.001-07:00

Before I go into today's topic, I would just like to say:

HAPPY 30TH POST!

Ok back to today's topic. There'll be another celebration on the 50th post.

Yesterday, we had a new Math teacher to replace Mrs Chong. The new teacher was ok lah, but at the self-introduction part it was damn funny. Some of the Chinese students said," I am XXX and the special thing about me is that I love my Chinese teacher a lot!" Then everyone was like laughing like xiao. Just in case you dunno, my chinese teacher is XXX (can't reveal name for privacy). Everybody loves her so much. Probably because of what she did and out of laughter. Actually she very nice one leh, only thing she never showed 100% of her nice part YET. Because of some reason,that's why our GPA for Chinese never got last in the level for PR1. She is so entertaining to the class. Really leh. Everyone loves her so much. You'll love her if you know what she did to our class and if you are in her class. Want to know then send me a SMS. Because it is confidential. Really cannot tell. Then today everybody all say I so emo(Am I?), can't believe it leh. I thought that my actions were like so not emo. DUH. If I was I would be drawing or writing songs for other couples( which I wrote b4 at p6, and the teacher confiscated it but luckily it was never found coz I hid it inside my bag:) so I gave a piece of my drawing with some words) If he saw it I really die liao. REALLY. Coz I was writing a love song for one of my classmates couples, which unfortunately to couple no longer exists, and it was so funny and make the whole class have a commosion. Everybody was like trying to read the song then the teacher come lor. (Anyway, the song's still in my diary, which I think maybe it's at home.) Spoil all the fun. We being creative also don't allow. We become so creative for the school to win the song contest leh, still wanna confiscate. So sad lah. People were like saying," I thought this song is by S.H.E and Fahrenheit?(so naive, I where got so copycat.)". Then this person that's so naughty go tell me write that song lor. Because my last round one they saw already then they say," Yah, very true, they are a couple what. Anyway both of them loveto listen to song so much, one listen to Asian, one listen to Western, both together make the best couple and will sing the song best." Haha, and I think I've got to draw the family tree of 6B again. It is probably one of the only things that can remind us of 6B 10 or 20 years later, so I better work on it when I am bloody free.

ARRGGGH...EXTEND THE HOLS!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-06-27T05:47:00.001-07:00

PLEASE EXTEND THE HOLIDAYS FOR ALL SCHOOLS! SOME SCHOOLS ARE HAVING HOME LEARNING BUT OTHERS ARE NOT, AND IT IS SO DAMN UNFAIR!!!! So if you still want to maintain the years of peace in the students, u better extend the holidays,OR ELSE...

2009-06-24T21:40:00.000-07:00

Get your own Poll!

Ok this poll if you think should include more people,plz suggest on the tagboard. Thank you.

Duno wad to post...

2009-06-24T21:10:00.000-07:00

I am like so damn bored now...got homework to finish leh.

Wad else to post?

BB

Everyone plz vote

2009-06-24T02:07:00.000-07:00

This is time for a moment of truth. The votes in the channel news asia website have hit probably the highest level of participation of students. With students from all around Singapore having had to respond to this so much, it clearly shows that we need an extension. Plz vote below. Thank you.

Holidays are ending soon

2009-06-21T20:43:00.000-07:00

The holidays are going to end soon but if you wish for it to extend please go to the link below and vote for an extension in the holidays. There's a current vote of 89% supporting an extension in holidays, but to get official approval a safety benchmark for it to be confirmed will be 90% or higher. We're not that far from that. Also, persuade your friends who haven't voted to use their computers and vote rigourously for an extension. Then get them to have their other friends vote. The poll is at the bottom left hand corner of the website,so start voting :).

www.channelnewsasia.com/singapore/index.htm

Extension of Holidays please...

2009-06-20T00:56:00.000-07:00

I really hope that the June holidays are extended...or else i die...my homework not done yet leh...other than finishing my math assignment and Japanese travel guide. Only one week of holiday left...so fast. Must really 'chiong' or else will never get my homework done. Must not play com for so long already...maximum 2 hours a day. And I really want to change CCA. My current one pisses me off. Make me have hyperventilation and depression. Just jk. But my hate for it is true. I going to change already, hopefully to one that is much more better...

Came back

2009-06-18T02:34:00.000-07:00

Finally came back from holiday. First I went Hong Kong but only for for transit(if I never said this please take this as the formal one) because Hong Kong that day newspaper say got many cases and very dangerous because they suspect have commercial spreading and close their schools for 2 weeks so go Seoul. Then later at the forth or fifth day flew back to Hong Kong to stay for 2 days because at North Korea they say can use the nuclear weapon by the 16th of June and will be very dangerous. So later I go Hong Kong. Then Hong Kong everything all so expensive inside the airport, but outside the airport everything is so cheap. Then today early morning I come Singapore. Done.

Class Gathering

2009-06-08T20:08:00.000-07:00

Firstly, I would like to apologise to the organisers for not coming for the gathering. They have put in a lot of time and effort in planning such a class gathering. I had gastric pain and some flu and I was afraid that the flu was contagious so I stayed home instead.

Secondly, the turnout for the class gathering was rather discouraging, with only 9 people coming including the organisers, which are probably 3 or 4 people. The excuses alone stopped many people from coming. All I know is that the number of people who turned up is very little. When the last round we had close to 30 people coming, this round really shows a large difference. At the previous class gathering much more people came. I expected less people to come, roughly around half the class or just a little lower, but less than a quarter of the class actually came, not even two digits of people came! However, the swimsuit problem should have been solved by then. Because we went there for a class gathering. The September gathering may not even occur at all, because many people would be studying for their end of year exams. So the most closest date that a class gathering would even occur is during the November/December holidays. By that point of time some people might have lost contact with the class.

However, though this statement may sound silly, but could another class gathering be held during the June holidays? Because the turnout is so little. I know that everyone is very busy people, but holding one more now is better, because the next most possible chance is during November/December holidays, and that will be like 5 or 6 months from now?

2009-06-08T00:49:00.000-07:00

I am warning the spammer to GET OUT. Continue your baseless statements and I will have your reputation go down and i will give you a road to get infamous. Heidi, if you don't get out, and I'll see how your reputation collapses from its peak. This is not a threat; it is just a warning. You can continue posting comments that don't deserve any attention on my blog. Then you'll see how your reputation collapses. I will use your words against you if you continue your childish and stubborn way.

A proposal

2009-06-06T07:46:00.000-07:00

This is a suggestion for the people. Firstly, may all people go against any currently ousted piece of nothing that deserves no particular attention. This is a method that can protect our country in all methods. Firstly, more tax dollars would be made available to the government because getting rid of this obstruction will help the people increase their efficiency in work. These tax dollars can be used to help the less fortunate get more opportunities to spend money, which is the way to kick start our economy and make it ever more wealthier. Secondly, it will protect our harmonious society from threats. By doing so, our country will grow stronger and so will the happiness of people increase. Thirdly, if countries want their military weapons to be tested or used, they can test it on the type of people that I have mentioned. The only person who belongs to the group so happens to be a person whose name doesn't deserve mention. Everyone all knows about this person. Perhaps people who feel very emo can start taking out their anger on this person (or this piece of nothing).

Make the wise decision. Going against one that is going to harm us will be better than having millions affected negatively.

More people please come for class gathering

2009-06-05T08:28:00.000-07:00

Ok this blog post is appealing to the boys and girls of 6B to go for the class gathering.

Let's start with the boys(which most probably won't be reading my post as very little of them are into blogging). Ok teenage boys please come for the class gathering. If you're gonna complain because of the swimsuit problem then I would like to tell you one thing. We can go to WWW in either swimsuit(if you manage to find one that fits you), trunks(what you most likely would avoid) or just some clothes that you can afford to get wet over your trunks. Simple. Problem solved. Most of you are into the idea that only trunks can fit into the occasion. It can fit into this occasion, together with just wearing some clothes that you can wear over. I strongly urge as many boys to go for the occasion. Though being the minority(less boys than girls), but you still carry a very strong swing over whether it's going to be successful. Lots of the fun and laughter comes from you. Somehow, the domino effect will be launched just by one person not coming. Then it will snowball until only very few people come because they interlink all the way to the girls and the whole think collapses. So think about what's been said here before you make your decision.

Now for the girls. I know that you don't want to wear your swimsuit as it looks damn awkward for a class that has never swum together before. Then wear clothes over it. And somehow people like Yun Yi who claim that they are so much less money-minded than me can call this gathering a waste of money. It will be a waste of money for everyone else who took time off their extremely busy schedule just for a gathering, if you don't come.

OK this is my final wave of convincing over the Internet. I am not going to waste anymore of my effort typing so much and putting in so much time just for people to pretend they would come it but in the end don't because of some excuse that isn't reasonable.

I shan't waste my breath anymore.

Probably a new area for the gathering?

2009-06-05T07:28:00.000-07:00

OK the gathering so many people not going because of the swimsuit thing so there are 3 alternatives. a)Either someone manages to convince lots of people to go, b)The whole gathering just disappears into thin air, or c) a change in location. I am open to wherever the organising committee chooses to go.The majority of votes came voting for WWW, yet it only represented around 12 votes (which could have been repeated again on another computer, and the votes might not have necessarily came from 6B). If we want to see the full view we could have people calling others for their vote one by one, but would be a very tedious process. However if we don't review the thing again, unless we have some miracle happen(which is technically impossible), there will be very little people going. A pathetic number.

Yes, I know that VP has already made her stand clear that the class gathering will be held at WWW, so you either come or don't. You don't come and you lose many other things. You lose a sacred and rare chance to have a gathering like this. You destroy the 6B's reputation. You shorten your fun time by hours. You may even be forgotten by the class whether you even exist. Most importantly, you lose out a chance for bonding with the other 6B people.

However, if you really want to voice out a suggestion which you believe is feasible and that more people will go and enjoy, then voice it out directly to the committee. That's reasonable. The unreasonable examples are using stupid excuses which can be shifted to some other day.

Also, because the communication between the class is very restricted, not everyone has a vote. Like I SMSed a whole group of people on my contact list which I believed did not received Stef's message on last weekend. Yet, I do not have everyone's handphone number, so not everyone was reached. I believe that at least 1/4 of the class have no idea that this class gathering is even going on. I sent someone a message which some people like Yun Yi had his number but when I sent this person said," What class gathering?". You can imagine how small a percentage do the tagboards represent.

So, let's try to have everyone exchange handphone and house numbers, at least with the committee at the class gathering. So that years from now we could still meet up as a class,which I believe is very rare and wonderful for students of the same Primary School.

Ok, so come. If you don't come, I'll make sure I spam your inbox till it bursts because I have one whole chunck of unneeded value. More than 2000 SMSes worth. So come unless you are prepared for a spamming of your inbox

New Songs

2009-06-05T06:52:00.000-07:00

I wonder if I am the only one in my class that listens to so many chinese songs. Ok maybe I'm the only one in the level that listens to so many. Never mind.

Enough of blogging. Have to mug tomorrow leh.

Mixed feelings...

2009-06-04T06:48:00.000-07:00

Ok I've finally came back from the camp and I can't believe I am actually enjoying it. It was so much more less tiring than March so I would give this a 3.5/5 as a score overall.

Anyway, during yesterday night, I don't understand why I dreamt about something so horrible that I've never dreamt for ages. Very horrible. So horrible that I almost fainted.

Back to blogging. The class gathering is like coming up so soon. Only 4 more days. Less than 100 hours. Till this point of time many people say they don't want to go leh. They give all kinds of reasons. Some reasons are simply not reasonable. Really. I am already having a hard time convincing my other groupmates to postpone my GRADED history project meeting just for the class gathering. GRADED leh! and this is when my score is already going to melt below the 3.2 level, which I am currently stationing at. And 3.2 is obviously not good because some people who came in with a PSLE score of 262 are already so ahead of me. And just 1 mark in front of me there's a 3.77, while just 1 mark behind there's a 3.56. Please, 6B people. Don't just use some random excuse like I can't wake up at that time, I'm too tired to get there because I want to sleep some more... The organising committee can just cancel this whole thing and study or play with their own friends in small and tiny groups. They have put in so much effort just for the class to unite. Yet you can allow yourself to say something like that? If you can come, just come. Please. If you don't come because of a non-valid reason, others will follow and this gathering will soon cease to exist.

So just come for the class gathering. There's guaranteed lots of fun, unity and talking.

primary school class gathering

2009-06-01T06:30:00.000-07:00

Tmr I got SMO, have been waiting for it since March.
Hope to get a bronze at least!
Anyway Yun Yi please stop posting stupid comments on my tagboard.
My tagboard isn't for you to spam...

I'm so looking forward to the class gathering! I was so happy when the organisers said there was going to be a class gathering

Just 7 days from now. Yet I don't understand my other primary school classmates. They are like saying they're not coming because of excuses like :" I'm scared of getting wet", "It's too far" and other non-valid excuses.

I mean, you can go for the class gathering even if you're afraid of water right. At least go to the children's area if you're scared of water. But if you can't come because of transport problem, go with the 6B people that stay next to you. If you don't wanna come because you can't wake up that early, get someone to call you. As simple as that. All non-valid excuses are solved.

I also wonder why 6B people are complaning over the venue. It's the majority. You voted for it so don't complain. Besides, many of us have never been to WWW for a long time, ever since the year started. Imagine how much fun we would have if everyone come and enjoys themselves. Then we can live up to our name of being the most united class.

So everyone if you are not occupied that day, please come. Don't come (without a valid reason)and it's going to affect the whole class. You and your presence matter a lot.

Wishlist...things to buy

2009-05-31T08:28:00.000-07:00

Ok I've got to buy some things when I'm out of the country. Certainly not going to Mexico.

B'dae gift for sarah, Very belated B'dae gift for ai li si, also belated b'dae gift for YY. I wonder if have anything else I have to buy for my classmates...

Ok 11.45 pm now. 15 min before midnight.

Wishlist for Short Term

1. Improve my GPA to at least 3.4 for PR 2 or I'll fall into a Great Depression
2. Have more hangouts per month, instead of the current pathetic less than 1.5 times of hangout per month to 2.
3. Japanese score must go up. If don't go up I can't rely on it as a safety net.
4. Less addiction to facebook. From approx 1.5 hours a day to max 1 hour.
5. Watch the news more often. Now everyday all dun watch.
6. Go for the 6B class gathering! Most important!
7. Get done with all my homework by week 3. Or else I will burn my homework.
8. Get a nice cert for SMO. I am not accepting COP again.

Wishlist for longer term(more than 1/2 year)
1. Continue getting 4.0 for Math
2. Read more books.
3. Compose more songs for my classmate couples!

Nothing else.
Regards,
Lionel

I'm so tired...

2009-05-31T06:35:00.000-07:00

Ok listening to songs obviously doesn't make me tired, but it's the CCA camp that comes up next week.

I feel like shouting a total of 100-1 vulgarities right in front of their faces, because I can't pon it or the teacher will start coming.

My 3 days of ever-lasting misery, pain and torture are coming. But all I can do is to hope my flu or an athsma attack that hasn't came for ages will come. Really desparate. Then I want it to go off at the 3rd's night or the 4th's morning. I really want to go to the class gathering. I hope that it doesn't fall on the camp's day. Please. Tolong. Or I'll experiment on my cold and use double medicine. Then I let it become the most powerful weapon in history, much more powerful than a natural disaster.

Regards,
International Republic of DPRK

So many love relationships

2009-05-30T07:05:00.000-07:00

I wonder how and why people fall in love so damn easily.
Yes, I am not supposed to be so busybody about others, but I still want to talk about it.
I seriously don't understand it.
WJM and someone else is one of them...and many others too.
Maybe it's because I am in a school where love relationships don't happen and the school's motto is 'love after 16'.
I believe very little in love relationships nowondays. I seem to only care about money, grades and fun. No longer towards love relationships. I don't believe they will last long.
When about at this time last year I was believing so much in it.
No more.
But I wonder why my classmates believe so much in it.
Both ex and current.
What's the reason for them to compromise so much for their crush?
In their doing they can even hurt themselves.
The other half hardly appreciates it. Then when they break up, the other half feels almost nothing at all. Like being so used to a break-up. I know people who have cried over their break-up, I also know some that turned completedly emo over it. They can cut themselves with a penknife times and times. Some can even lose the joy of living, and death can seem like the only alternative for them. These are just the usual scenarios after break-ups.

Therefore, I no longer believe in love relationships

(Sounds like some Philo Lesson)

Holidays...have to brush up

2009-05-29T07:09:00.000-07:00

My scores are really freaking low and I really have to improve. Last time at P6 even if I slack everyday I can still keep up with the pace, but now although I slack quite little but I can't keep up with the pace. Like a bullet train chasing a rocket. But now the rocket has stopped, but I have to keep studying. However other than studying I still have many things up on the holidays(probably the most in all my holidays). So I really must study hard and then play without fear and guilt if the homework isn't completed.

Enough of Blogging for today

Being Emotional

2009-05-29T02:11:00.000-07:00

Ever since I got my first formal interaction with music, I have found that it is so very hard to let the tears flow despite the fact that the music is very touching.

Have I gone emotional?

I've just realised that I haven't cried for a very long time, although there were times that I felt like doing so.
In the past it was so easy to have my emotional feeling disappear.
Now it's so difficult. Even crying seems like a difficult chore to me.

Maybe it's because I have learnt one of the methods to survival: tolerance
Even when I feel like hacking someone on the chest, I get so emotional that I just keep a smile.

My problem is definitely worse than the Math rep's. Definitely. Even though he was the most emo in the class but at least he hasn't cut himself yet and not yet cried at home. But I have. All the time. In my heart, which is the worst place. Anyway I have decided that once my CCA camp is over, I will return to normal.

Or is it going to be a one-way ticket?

Blogging

2009-05-26T06:29:00.000-07:00

Today is another BORING day.
Very unusual to have such a boring day.
But never mind.
I really need to have more people to tag, this blog seems unknown but it's not like my other blogs that have failed. Nothing interesting today. All I know that I have a good night's of sleep for tonight because my Japanese test got 35/50! First time in 3 tests, and I am officially disclosing my marks for my 3rd lang.
CA1: 17.5/45 (FAILED)
CA2: 24/35 (The amount of time spent paid off, but still have room for improvement.)
CA3: 35/50! (Best score among all 3! Probably the only subject other than Math that I am around average. Finally I can have a relaxed sleep)

Ok end of blogging

June hols coming

2009-05-25T06:20:00.000-07:00

June holidays coming. So very soon. It seems like I've just taken PSLE.
But it will be one of the best holidays. Firstly I am going to escape theme park with some of the ex-6B students. Next I have planned 7 days of anti-work, only relax and play session. Then I will mug for at least 15 days. Then do project work with my classmates. The rest of the days I have other activities.
So simple holiday schedule. Last December was much more simpler.
Ok back to my blgging main point.
Today, there was this group arrangement thing for history. The teacher was allowing us to get into our own groups. Then I went with a group of classmates. Some of them were like very smart so wanted by some people. Then a very pointless yet large argument arised. "Your group has so many elite people...not fair! Cannot be elitist!" Some guy that's hated by the whole class said. Then one of my group members came and said, " Oh shut up. This is fair enough already! What's your problem? Elite doing with elite and not-so-elite doing with not-so-elite works better. So the work will be much more evenly distributed." The group of either unwanted or simply not enough spaces to occupy said(of course lah, the unwanted list is very unwanted because either of attitude problems or slacking, but there was an exception who could not get in because he made his decision too late). Then this argument continued.
And continued.
Democracy did not occur in the end. It was communism. I have no personal hatred for communism if all the people are working hard. But it does not work out because some slackers and freeloaders can say," I'll send you tomorrow" forever. Some people just don't contribute not because they don't have a chance, but because they are just lazy. While others think they are very great after doing something which they should be humble about so they heck care and make sure you take them as a king.
It all now depends on a lucky draw to determine who gets into whose group.
P.S: I have not put anyone's name up because I do not want this person to feel mentally distressed in anyway due to this blog post. More importantly, I do not wish to have law suits or discrimination towards me coming for this blog post.
Time to end blogging. Gd nite

Losing my concentration...

2009-05-23T07:54:00.000-07:00

Currently I am try to gain control of my concentration, which I have lost in the past 5 weeks or so. Firstly I am in a place where the Japanese writing practice is not enough (Therefore very hard to find something good to do). Secondly I am in a place where I am almost the bottom in everything other than mother tongue and maths, which are just above average, when in the past at 5B/6B I was in a place where I remained the top three of the class no matter what happened. Complete difference so I have not been able to adapt to it. I could find time to revise but I feel too free from last year's busyness. And the amount of tution I have is simply not enough. Not suffcient. And in the past I had concentration for various reasons, wanting to be the elite and earning millions, to make Pei Chun proud, for my 1st crush, wanting to give my school a place among the competitions in the elite schools (managed to get into top 50 and crush one whole group of Gepers by proving that the GEP education is not neccesarily better than the mainstream). But 6 weeks ago I had almost no reason. Luckily I found a reason recently, which was to be shocking the ppl who look down on me in terms of results (which I have done so before) and force them to look up to me. Though it sounds very unnice, but at least I get my higher scores.

Past and present

2009-05-21T06:33:00.000-07:00

Isn't this what I have been wanting for?
Coming to a school that is so famous and welcoming(but 6B is better)?
But why do I feel so emo at times?
Why do I feel like I am one that has to be under the control of others?
Laughing when I do, it's often not genuine.
It's under my laughter where you see misery and sadness.
Where both the good scores and the friendliness simply disappears.
All I can do to make it disappear is by doing more work or an occasional trip to the arcade.
But it definitely is not enough.
I wonder whether it is me myself that's making others control me.
Even my tears can't come out when I'm alone
I am really tired from being one that is being controlled.
Really very tired...

Tests are ending

2009-05-21T03:03:00.000-07:00

Most of the tests are over but I think getting back the results is the worst part. I'd rather do the exam on next Thursday or what then get it back next term. Then I can sleep well at night.

New Blog

2009-05-16T23:10:00.000-07:00

This is my new blog as every single of my previous blogs have failed...
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