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Tuesday, July 13, 2010

Wah now so fast past midnight le. I thought tablets supposed to make you drowsy.

Anyway I was playing tarot cards just now out of boredom, and apparently the things inside seem quite re-assuring. Conflict will result in success. So on and so forth. But some were quite saddening (of course, if there's no saddening part then it's fake.) Listening to the same music again and again, I wonder how I manage not to get bored yet. Coming this afternoon is what i dislike. Apparently unlike other people who just dislike it I seem to hate it to the core, making me despo for anything but to get far far away from it. Not just fear but also shock, pain, temper. I rather starve, get myself ill to avoid it. The fear I am experiencing, especially having a failed attempt once destroyed nearly every piece of hope i had. The miracle I hope it happens soon, I really don't want to wait for any more delays (as said by the tarot card). Then I can walk on a new path.

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