Thursday, September 24, 2009
Sigh.
Bored. What to do?
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3:24 AM
Saturday, September 19, 2009
Sigh, end-of-year exam coming so soon.
Yet, a memory remains within my mind, unforgettable for a whole year, despite attempts to forget. One year on, this painful memory never disappears. I find it so hard to forget.
It has been difficult to cry this whole year, which makes the whole thing worser. This feeling comes everyday, a painful burden that is hard to bear.
Remembering is difficult in areas like studying, but it is pain that is best remembered. Even when a candle loses its fire within hours, a burnt candle takes decades or even centuries to completely disappear from this world. It remains there, with the candle being a memory and the fire being what happened.
I have suddenly realised that it has been term 4. I only realise that what seemed so easy to disappear cannot,once something related comes back to your mind months or years of hard work for this memory to fade away goes back to square 1. It is an unforgettable memory which never disappears
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9:31 PM
Friday, September 11, 2009
Sigh, time flies. Now is already Term 3 school holidays already ending. But when I remember that school ends at week 8 term 4, I just get so happy. I can go online for like 2 or 3 hours without realising it. Seriously. Then the music go like don't know how many times already I still repeat it. Sigh. I am getting tired. Very tired. I am quite tired of facebook already. I feel like quitting, yet I can't. I think I'll just pause it for 3 days or something. Now is already 11.43pm. 60 hours to school again. The same cycle which I get so tired of it. I keep thinking ahead, then everything seems to be perfect. I think of when I graduate from sec school, jc, uni. I wonder, why am I being so tired? I know I can't end it by jumping off a ledge. I just feel so negative, everything comes against me. I simply have no idea why all this is happening to me. Why do I feel it to be so normal, for vulgarities to be coming against me? Why does it seem so normal, to be hated by so many people? It's just painful feeling like that. How come do I feel like that?
It's tiring acting as though nothing happened. I have had enough of acting. I have had enough of being ridiculed, hated for no apparent reason. I really hope that this will end. I realise that I have not changed this whole time. Not a bit. I am still as tired, as acting as before. I have never changed at all when I thought I had. A bottle of water in a metal container, heated and full with heat, once that heat is gone, back to square one. I just feel like I am just excess, simply extra.
Being real tired, real tired of this never-ending show. I have to act that I have no idea what is going on. I have to act that I don't care of these attacks. I have had enough of it. It has been tired acting for so long. This painful memory is very painful,
这场戏几时结束
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9:12 AM
Wednesday, September 9, 2009
LALALALALA you are so screwed. Who are you ah? So rude anyhow go publicise when I didn't even give you permission to do so. You better find some way to clear up my blog's URL. It took like 3 months for your last post to disappear into the older messages of the cbox and now you come and dao luan again. How many 3 months are you going to do this ah? Blood lah you. Zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz. One more time, just one more, and I will call in MOE to go and track who you are. Then they'll prosecute you on grounds of ignorance of privacy rights and breaking of privacy laws.
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2:33 AM
Thursday, September 3, 2009
I'm just so bored.
Freak lah. Math PT so difficult to count. I spent like 1 hour counting for 36 months of the bank loan and i have to count like 360 months some more. If it's not right I have to do it again. Sian.
It's just quite difficult to count although I count well in sums like 1+1. Then the stupid excel so bloody difficult to count. I put the dollar sign also don't have. So in the end don't use $ sign lor. And the stupid instalment thing is worst. I count like so wrong leh. And this stupid PT also don't let the people in the story pay faster than 30 years. I mean it's so much more easier to count like that. Not like the people cannot afford. Still extend until 30 years. They thought they borrowing from Japan bank ah, got 0% interest, can 慢慢付. Like that pay even more lor. I mean, if this a Performance Task, we should calculate the years for them OURSELVES to help them save money. The interest also not low, still tell us die die must do 30 years. You thought value of money drop so fast ah. Got drop also never drop so fast, or how the bank earn so much money to give 10 years bonus? Or I can finish the task with, they sold their house at the same price and received the same amount back and paid the bank in one lump sum after 30 years. Even easier.Or maybe they found gold underneath their house and sold their house for a profit of $2m and paid the house loan immediately. Or even better, they forgot to sign the bank agreement so no interest charged.
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2:36 AM
