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Saturday, May 23, 2009

Currently I am try to gain control of my concentration, which I have lost in the past 5 weeks or so. Firstly I am in a place where the Japanese writing practice is not enough (Therefore very hard to find something good to do). Secondly I am in a place where I am almost the bottom in everything other than mother tongue and maths, which are just above average, when in the past at 5B/6B I was in a place where I remained the top three of the class no matter what happened. Complete difference so I have not been able to adapt to it. I could find time to revise but I feel too free from last year's busyness. And the amount of tution I have is simply not enough. Not suffcient. And in the past I had concentration for various reasons, wanting to be the elite and earning millions, to make Pei Chun proud, for my 1st crush, wanting to give my school a place among the competitions in the elite schools (managed to get into top 50 and crush one whole group of Gepers by proving that the GEP education is not neccesarily better than the mainstream). But 6 weeks ago I had almost no reason. Luckily I found a reason recently, which was to be shocking the ppl who look down on me in terms of results (which I have done so before) and force them to look up to me. Though it sounds very unnice, but at least I get my higher scores.

* meeh-
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